RT Article T1 'I Do Not Exist': Pathologies of Self Among Western Buddhists JF Journal of religion and health VO 58 IS 3 SP 748 OP 769 A1 Pickering, Judith 1959- LA English YR 2019 UL https://ixtheo.de/Record/1666394874 AB This paper presents a clinical case involving a patient suffering 'depersonalisation' who had a psychotic episode at a Buddhist retreat. Recent writing on possible psychological risks of meditation has discussed problems of depersonalisation associated with misunderstandings of the Buddhist conception of non-self (anātman) and emptiness (sūnyatā). Drawing on the work of Winnicott and Bion, this article helps us to realise some of what is at stake in the failure to achieve and maintain an effective sense of self. What does Buddhist talk of non-self really mean? What conditions enable a creatively engaged and meaningful relational life, a sense of aliveness, human flourishing and a capacity for alterity? K1 Alterity K1 Bion K1 Depersonalisation K1 Derealisation K1 Emptiness (sūnyatā) K1 Jung K1 Lévinas K1 Nihilism K1 Non-self (anātman) K1 Self K1 Winnicott DO 10.1007/s10943-019-00794-x